When we start our life -and we go for first time to school-
nothing forebodes our future life.
During the school period and the childhood, we live in a
house full of relatives, we have a circle of friends and school mates, we have
many school and family obligations, many different interesting that we don’t
have the time to feel lonely. Actually, we don’t have time to feel anything
except of anger for the relatives that we cannot stand of exhaustion.
But when we leave behind the safe circle of the teens, many
problems appear.
First of all we have to enter in another circle, the circle
of work colleagues, university colleagues, army friends…
As all of us know, the entrance in a circle is not an easy
thing. Whatever are the reasons that make this penetration uneasy, this is the
truth.
And what happen if your life obliges you to change the place
of leaving and move to another place?
If you make this movement for studies, you have the
opportunity to make a new circle, but if you have to work, the things are a
little bit difficult.
You want to be in a circle that more or less everybody has
his own friends from his childhood or the university years and you have to play
with the law of possibilities.
Would be able to be part of this new circle or not?
Sometimes it happen,
sometimes you enter in the circle, but this circle put its limits to you. Of
course you entered the circle, but…
The members of this circle recognize you as a friend under
special circumstances. They will call you for example to go out with them, only
if no one else is available.
This is a good start for loneliness and as lonely people
have a very special feeling of distraction, the feeling that their loneliness
always bothers the others, they never ask or demand.
And one after the other, the circles remain closed. And the
life passes with an endless effort to penetrate the circle of companionship.
And gradually you start to invent a false life to narrow to
those who ask you “what have you done this weekend?” and you cannot answer
“nothing, absolutely nothing, I was sitting on my sofa with my loneliness”.
And the anxiety to invent a “life” begins.
“Oh, look at all that lonely people…”
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