How is to feel weak all your life? Weak, insecure, terrified, afraid, unprotected, coward…
How is when you cannot speak, you don’t have any other feeling than fear?
How is life when you are not enough for anything? When in every project of yours, something is missing.
When always you realize that you are insufficient? “Small”? Pathetic?
When you can never finish something because you are weak (we don’t care about the reasons of this weakness)? We you are convinced (fairly or unfairly) that you are weak and react like this?
When all your life feels like you are closed in a place just a little bit more than your size and actually you cannot move? When all your life feels that you decide, but finally is the box around you that decides?
How is when you feel like Scarlett O’Hara, when he says to Ashley Wilkes, “Nothing in my life happened as I wished”?
How you’ll find the courage to continue and for what reason, when every time you make a step ahead, life kicks you back to the beginning again?
When you never had things that for all the others are obvious?
When your heat is flying and you are ready to rule the world, but you are not even able to rule your own life? When your insecurity drives the boat of your life?
When you have never felt what success is?
How is life when you are afraid even of your shadow? When every moment of your life a secret fear -that you cannot exactly understand its source- scratches your heart every day and every beat of its is an hurtful pain?
When the “whens” with question marks and the “hows” become more and more every day?
What happen in life when you realize that you are a weak person? That in case that you have any other advantage, your weakness covers every thing?
When you discover that you are not able to spread your winds? You cannot move your feet more than the distance that life has decided for you?
When every night when you dream your ideal life you hear only three words: “you are weak, you are nothing”?
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